When I was a Kid

When I was a kid
 I looked around and surveyed
  my situation.
 I thought to myself
  I'll never do anything marvelous --
 I won't stand out.
 So, I thought to myself there is one
thing you can do - that nobody else
can do --
  you can love god the best -
  you can be his best lover -

I was wrong.
I can't be his best lover.
There are others out there behind me, around me
and in the future who will love god the most
and the best --
that's for them to do.

god chose them to do that.
c
and she has every right to do that.

 me

im just ordinary
plugging away in my ordinary life
doing my ordinary things

loving god in only the pitiful human way i can
the doris way

amen