the shortest path

sometimes the shortest path
is the longest journey.
           by doris

The End of Life

At the end of my life
 I am raised up into the life of Christ
 I am immersed in God
                            become God
 but do not lose my individualtiy.

sometimes I think at that point
 I wouldn't care if I ceased to exist

but the thought is only momentary

Theresa of Avila

O' Teresa of Seven Mansions

Yes, you wrote of your Interior Castle

Yes, you wrote of your Seven Mansions

The first three are all about us
 and our strivings to enter the chamber
 of His Majesty.

The last four mansions - we seem to be able
 to do nothing about - it's all God's doing
 which in itself seems unfair.

So unfair -

Why would God seek out someone the likes of me
 to share his life with

I ask myself
Why indeed?

Lectio Divina

Psalmist Doris Says:
My eyes are tired O Lord
 soon I will go to bed and
 think soft thoughts of the next day.

You are ever in my mind
  a gentle haze beyond my eyes

I smile when I think of you and sleep overtakes me
for you  bring delight to to the theater of my shaded eyes..

I go to sleep with the thought of
 you on my lips - I know you will
 be there to welcome me when I
 wake up.

I smile for you are ever on my mind

St. Valentine's Day

called the allergist doctor
appointment 2-20-13
at 2 o'clock.

386-252-6622
353 North Clyde Morris Blvd.

The Simplest

sometimes the fastest way
to someone's heart is the
shortest path.
          by doris

but the trick is finding
that path.
 
 and again
        by doris.

A Sinner

O' Lord look down upon me a sinner
 your humble servant

I bow before thee.
I love to prostrate myself at your feet

These feet
that my eyes just barely see the tips of
your toes from my position on the floor

I look at them

and my hand reaches out
inches its way towards your sandal

you reach down and touch my shoulder

i dare not look

you who are the chosen one
have dared to put your gaze on me

it's so warm and tender

that it burns a hole in my heart

i close my eyes

and then i wake up.

Nothing

It is better to intuit nothing
than to know everything
           by doris

humility

you know god in her mercy gives us
many insights -  but yet if we don't
have humility it is all for naught.
                by doris

When I was a Kid

When I was a kid
 I looked around and surveyed
  my situation.
 I thought to myself
  I'll never do anything marvelous --
 I won't stand out.
 So, I thought to myself there is one
thing you can do - that nobody else
can do --
  you can love god the best -
  you can be his best lover -

I was wrong.
I can't be his best lover.
There are others out there behind me, around me
and in the future who will love god the most
and the best --
that's for them to do.

god chose them to do that.
c
and she has every right to do that.

 me

im just ordinary
plugging away in my ordinary life
doing my ordinary things

loving god in only the pitiful human way i can
the doris way

amen

Psalm 32

The Psalmist Says:
 
When I kept silent,
  my bones wasted away
  through my groaning all day long.

  Psalmist Doris Says:

  When I don't ask your pardon
    my insides bear the anxiety
    through my lamentations all day long
    my stromach churns in dismay

The Psalmist Says:

   For day and night
     your hand was heavy upon me
   my strength was sapped.

Psalmist Doris Says:

   Through light and darkness
      your gaze was ever on me
      and tiredness laid heavy upon me
      and fatigue was my companion.

The Psalmist Says:

  Then I acknowledged my sin to you
    and did not cover up my iniquity.

Psalmist Doris Says:

   Then I acknowledged my transgression to you
     and did not hide my guilt..

The Psalmist Says:

   I said, "I will  confess
     my transgression to the Lord:"
   and you forgave
     the guilt of my sin.

Psalmist Doris Says:

   I said, " I will confess
    my indifference to the Lord"
   and you forgave
     the heaviness of my laden spirit.

knowledge

the pursuit of knowledge sometimes
gets in the way of knowing nothing
                         by doris.

Pilates

today i did some one on one
shoulders
abdomen
legs

felt good

lazarus

Jesus was outside of town with
his apostles when he received
a message from Lazarus' family.

MESSENGER:  Lord, the one whom you love
   is sick.
PETER:  Maybe we should go Master.
JESUS:  No, let's finish what we are doing.
PETER:  But the messenger sounds urgent.
JESUS:  We will go in three days.

The days past and Jesus and his apostles
and a few of the disciples preached and
taught in the neighboring towns.  Night came
on the third day.

JESUS:  Tomorrow we will go see Lazarus.

A mile from Lazarus house Martha met Jesus.

MARTHA:  Master the one whom you love has died.

Upon hearing this Jesus wept.

JESUS:  Tell Mary to come out.

MARY:  Lord, if you had been here the one whom you
loved would not have died.

JESUS:  He is not dead but sleeping.  It is the false self
that has perished.  Let us go to the tomb.

Jesus arrived at the tomb.   His apostles went inside.
Peter came out.

PETER:  He stinks, Lord.

JESUS:  Go and unravel his bindings.

The apostles did as they were told and Lazarus
came forth from the tomb.

JESUS:   Amen I say to you unless a man die
to the old self and become a new man he shall
not enter the kingdom of heaven.

(In actuality Jesus did not say the above at this
time - but that was the intent of the message
that he declared.)

God's Soul Mate

God's Soul Mate
Is a New Thought
I'll have to ponder
In the quiet of my heart.

Psalm 32

The Psalmist Says:
  Blessed is he
     whose transgressions are forgiven,
     whose sins are covered.
  Blesses is the man
     whose sin the Lord does not count against him
     and in whose spirit is no deceit.

The Psamist Doris Says:
   Blessed is she
     whose transgressions are forgiven,
      whose sins are covered.
    Blessed is the woman
      whose sin the Lord does not count against her
       and in whose spirit is no deceit.

Doris Says:
   O' Lord bless this woman
     who painstakingly seeks thee
     not to her own credit
     but the fact that you put the desire in me
     so I may seek thee every day of my waking life.

   You did this to me
    I know you did.

    Sometimes I think you think this is a joke
      that you tantalize me with your urgings
      Come on Doris - Come on -
      I know you can do it
      Question:  Why do you do this?
       Answer:  Like a father urging his young daughter on
                 giving her promptings and pushes in the
                 right direction - letting her fall and letting
                 her get up again -

                forever urging her on - to make a woman out of
                thee - the woman/soul that I know you are.



 

The Moses Code

The book said to  make a list
of things I want.

These are my choices..

Money
Writing
To be God's Soul Mate

Now
Pick the One that you Desire the  Most.

I picked Number 3
To be God's Soul Mate.

Ordinary

All right, so today is Sunday
around 9:30 I did my cp
which was of course bombarded
with thoughts - i'm so tired of thoughts
that I don't even want to think of them.

that makes a lot of sense, right?

well, i finished the c.p. and i was going
to go to the 11 o'clock mass and I wanted
to take a shower - well, the shower was
occupied - so I didn't get to take a shower.

waiting for the shower I laid on the bed
and I thought to myself --- I'm so ordinary
that it is pathetic.  i'll never be anything but
ordinary.   even my love for god is ordinary.
no fireworks in that department.

so, i said, well, i'm going to go to mass shower or no
shower.  so, I changed my clothes, got dressed and
off john and i went.

we made church just as theyare singing the opening hymn.

love this church.  love looking at the people.
anyway the priest was funny.  had a few funny jokes,
really, he did.

then he started talking about the gospel.

guess what it was about - ordinary -
being ordinary -
well, my ears picked up.

when christ started preaching his message,
people listenend and were interested in what
he had to say - until they realized who he was.

Isn't this Jesus?
Isn't he the son of the carpenter Joseph?

for 30 years he lived in their midst
an ordinary life, nothing out of the ordinary about him

helped his father
helped his mother
went to synagogue

but now
he was so ordinary that now the pharisees
sought to take his life.

it is kind of hard to believe that someone
so ordinary could have such a message.

so now ordinary doesn't sound so bad.
maybe there is something to it after all.
and ordinary aint so bad.



i just wish it had a little more pazzaz.



Seeeee ya


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Alabaster Jar

Lift up my heart to you O Lord
Take it and hold it close to thee

Feel it
Taste it
Smell it

Hold it in your gaze

Let the pungent odor of Mary's alabaster jar
fill my nostrils till my breath is swept away
in your thought

ahhhh

the perfume

Feel it
Taste it
Smell it

Thine heart and mine are one
beating in rhythm with the same breath

O Mary that I may be the alabaster jar that
you broke open and held over the head of the Loved One

May I be the perfume that he feels running down
his hair, soaking his beard and penetrating his clothes.


May I be the taste that meets his inward breath.

May I be the smell that surrounds him.

ahhhh

to have caused all this commotion


ahhhhh
to be that alabaster jar ---